Sorry there have been more delays. There has been a shift at work and a lot of my time has been dedicated to that. One of our managers found a better job and she left so I had to fill the void left behind until a manager from a different store came back and got back into a rhythm. Now he is managing two stores and I am still managing the store I'm working at. Usually I have that under control, however something else came up.
We had a manager at one of our stores. I learned about two months ago that he and I were related, we were cousins! That became an exciting time for me to have another family member. One who doesn't treat me like shit and isn't an asshole. We knew who we were before, but we learned we are cousins! However about two weeks ago, he committed suicide. Not only did I need to step up at work and be strong when I clearly wasn't able to, I had to hide my feelings, and just not feel anything.
I wasn't able to do it. I broke down one Saturday night at work. I went out back and just cried. I finally couldn't take it, so I called my best friend who was out in Texas and told him to just talk, just talk, say anything. I just wanted to hear his voice and bring me some form of relief. He did, and it was something I needed.
Work has been needing adjustments to it. Thankfully though we are back on a "normal" level of productivity, so I should be getting back to work on here soon. Thanks to all who I have had delayed obligations towards.